Wonglinlin's

Baby i need you here.

2012-01-27T22:46:00.002+08:00

I remember when i was drunk i sent you a message saying, Baby i need you here. You rushed home for me, you came home for me and you stayed with me throughout the night. I wish to see you here when i send you that but you're 1626 miles away from me.

I miss you.

Faraway

2012-01-24T23:08:00.002+08:00

I keep having the thinking that you haven't left, i keep thinking that in a few minutes i could see you right beside me. This four days, i had you with me, not every minute but almost every hour. I was so used to have you sleeping right beside me that now, i don't wanna go to bed cause i don't wanna accept the fact that you ain't beside me now. I had you with me through all meals, throughout the day that i don't have to dress up and go out with you, we could just laze at home. I like the feeling you gave me that i could be just myself around you, no restrictions and stuffs. I like it when you whine to me once in a blue moon and how you'd laugh at my silliness, how you'd worry when my neck got swollen, how you scoop food for me, cutting my noodles for me, squeezing my cheeks, holding me, hugging me, grabbing me for a tight kiss, how you would look at me in the eyes, touch my hair and hug me to bed. Yes, i'm sensitive, i told you i need security and assurance, thats what you're giving to me, you told me you want to buy a house, a car and you wanna live with me. How sweet of you?

I think i fell for you, and this time, i ain't moving.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR

2012-01-23T15:39:00.002+08:00

After my granny's mum passed away, there ain't new year mood for us anymore. I'm not in the mood to post too, don't know what to post either.

School's stressing me out

2012-01-11T20:52:00.003+08:00

School's been pretty stress recently especially cause i failed some of term test papers and quizzes are coming up. So well, i'm pretty freaked out and i ain't coping well. But well, thanks to my poly mates, they always made my day a better one, look at how cute Brandon is and how nice he is after the 2 weeks holidays. Jh is missing from this photo thou, but well they are all so cute and lovely isn't it? I gotta buck up and study harder for my coming quiz and exams, can't afford to fail anymore, not to say any careless mistakes. I already sacrifice so many marks to careless mistakes. Everytime after a test paper, if i got careless mistakes, Dion would sit down there and count my marks for me while the rest tries to cheer me up, how i love them. If Brandon could remain like this forever, i swear i'd fucking love him. Well, i'm still surviving, till next time folks. :)

4 hours away

2012-01-07T23:44:00.003+08:00

Staring at your picture, its enough to bring me memories of you. Calling me to tell me you're safe, thats enough. I don't know what i have to go through, but i'm sticking here with you. Didn't expect myself to break down after you hang up the phone either. Love, please be safe.

TP OPEN HOUSE

2012-01-07T11:16:00.003+08:00

Hi graduates, come down to TP for open house, its pretty fun alright and Engine school is pretty high bout this. The atmosphere there is pretty nice with people dancing, jumping around, singing, shouting, talking and everything. Join TP. :)

Clubbing

2012-01-03T23:34:00.002+08:00

Happy new year peepos! I went clubbing with Wong and met a new friends. This is my first time to clubbing and i swear its fucking fun. All the dancing and the drinking, well Wong took care of me the whole night and the whole morning. :)

Christmas eve with half of my loves.

2011-12-31T14:27:00.003+08:00

Met up with half of 64 for steamboat and movie. Oh well, it was great but it would be better if everyone was here, i miss the old times. You know like balling till the lights off, having late dinner at hawker and supper at Macpherson lane's prata which cause me to be fat! Well, i do miss that, and look at how much i've changed. Ohya, and i tonned with Moonie, Jt and Ben.

I wish things would be how it used to, all those late nights together, yes i miss that.

Bangkok

2011-12-24T11:36:00.012+08:00

Sticky rice with Mango!

Ice tea!

My legs like a slim

My new t shirt!

My sister caught alot of my unglam photos!

Their cup noodles! TOM YUM!

Tom Yum Goong

Their shabu shi ice cream.

I'd like to bring all the pandan kueh back!

This crepe is quite nice.

They got gigantic durians in Chinatown

Spinach pie!

Their train cards

I swear this tom yum noodles is spicy, super spicy.

This is delicious!

They got this very cute tables with different country's flag.

I missed Manpuku so i ate their ice cream there!

My spicy seafood noodles, not spicy one.

My watermelon freeze!

A&W!

Food served in the plane.

A&W breakfast set

This is the hotel lobby

Fish spa.

My favourite chair in the hotel.

I don't know why my pictures are all jumbled up when i put them in sequence. Oh well, i'm gonna post bout my Bangkok trip! When we were in the plane approaching Thailand, the view is pretty nice, and you can see mountains and crops. The island look like its shaped nicely. Then we went over to the hotel, Novotel hotel, i swear it looks damn nice, every shopping mall, they have those Christmas decorations which looks very well done, unlike Singapore's. Singapore should get more involve with Christmas. We went to eat in a Thai restaurant, was pretty nice, although i think that their tom yum rice ain't spicy enough like those in Thai Express. Checked into the hotel, pardon the messy bed cause i took it when i just woke up. The chair is so comfy that i could fell asleep on it!
Went to this shopping mall called MBK, it was pretty big and the things well, was quite cheap too. I couldn't get my baseball cap cause there ain't my size, head too small :( I bought a Ray Ban sunglass, and got myself a havianas. There was alot of nice food there, and the Mac there have Spinach Pie, its super nice. I went to this mall that i wanted to go so badly, Platinum Fashion Mall, everything was so fucking cheap! It was a great haul. I bought my high waist shorts there, i must've slim down to be able to fit into their shorts and when you buy more, they give you this wholesale price, it was super cheap! I can't wait to go Bangkok again, whose in? When you go there, you must definitely try this panda kueh, its super duper nice, and the fruits there was super cheap and sweet! The best thing there was their ice tea. We went to this Chinatown, omg, it was super hot and rundown there, and while you were shopping, there are Vespa, cars and trolley moving everywhere and you gotta look out. But their Durians there is super gigantic! We ate pepper lunch there too. There was this night market near our hotel which sells pretty cheap stuffs too! We went to this night market where there was many pub running there and the doors was opened, you could see sexy girls in bikini dancing. Their figure are so damn hot can, not to forget i seen some ah gua, some was pretty pretty and sexy but some was -.- We went swimming in the morning, and guess what? It was like skinny dipping in Antartica, it was super cold and we manage to finish 20 laps. :) Oh well, this is all i can remember, enjoy the pictures above then!

LOSE WEIGHT

2011-12-16T00:41:00.003+08:00

Oh my, i found all these photos while looking through Face Book. What the fuck? You mean i was so fat? Okay, i slim down already can, i lost 10 fucking kg. Isn't my poly cliques cute? Term test just finished, and i'm going to Thailand soon :) I borrowed two book to learn basic thai, hardworking ain't i?

Huge reminder to self, PLEASE LOSE WEIGHT.

Stupid me.

2011-11-20T01:47:00.002+08:00

I guess i took the wrong path, i chose a path that cause me losing my greatest joy. How we'd eat late at night, sitting in the middle of the court just pouring hearts out, taking the last bus home or not even going home. We used to do crazy stuffs together and i always get full hugs from them, now to think of it, i was pretty dumb to let them go. Not to mention my crazy friends at the other side, how could i forget? Slacking at bubble tea shop, void decks. Hi Wong, why were you so stupid to let those go? I kinda miss them. Hi lovelies, i miss you.

Boredom

2011-11-10T20:16:00.003+08:00

School's rather bored for me recently cause i have to wear jeans on monday and friday, and i have to wear shoes everyday to school. Brandon fucked up big time, he kinda pissed me off today. Oh well, i'm not so petty, if he apologise or speak up first, i shall forgive him. I went for a jog today and i felt so accomplished. I hope school could end a little early so that i could go jogging or swimming at night. Well, school is no excuse girl, i still exercise as and when i can. I've been coughing for so long and it ain't recovering :( I shall see a doctor sooooon. J keep asking me drink Luo han guo can. OMG. And i can't believe that i have one in my fridge now. Oh well, tomorrow's friday like a finally. Shall have fun tomorrow, till then.

New friends.

2011-11-06T11:51:00.002+08:00

Okay, look at his stupid face with my new red hair!

I'm trying to find the ghost effect yo

This big guy says i look like a cat *meow meow*

Say hi to my new friends here, ain't they cute? Oh well, i've been snapping pictures with their iphones non stop and they keep saying this : I'm so not gonna upload for you, so much. Then i'll just take the phone, log out of fb, sign in to mine and upload myself. I looked at my photo from the past and compared now, i felt so satisfied. Well, bear with the post, i'm trying to make my blog a lil more interesting then my usual ones. Zx went to KL, and i keep telling him i want to eat the tau huey there, and guess what he says? I try to bring your tau huey back. HAHA, at least i can still see him, hopefully it wouldn't rot by the time he reaches. School is getting a lil bored for me cause my timetable sucks. And sometimes, S is like mind fucking me all the time and i hate him, irritating. Well, he hasn't upload my photos :( I like my new friends ^^

T.G.I.F

2011-10-23T12:42:00.005+08:00

I went to Pennisular Plaza with Angun my new Myanmar friend on friday. She brought me to eat Myanmar food. YAY! It was delicious. Then i went down to bugis to do some shopping before school opens. And guess what? The usual me, spending $56 in just a few minutes. Then me, moonie and sound met up for shee sha. Enjoy the pictures above then!

Kidzplay

2011-10-12T16:58:00.001+08:00

Welcome to the kids world. I simply love kids, aren't they cute and innocent? When they grow up, its a different story. Holidays are coming to an end, no job this holiday and i thought maybe i should do something meaningful like volunteering in some orphanage or elderly center. Well, life's short, do something nice.

I'm confused.

2011-10-05T18:07:00.002+08:00

Nothing beats then staying at home for a day to take a break from everything. I've been heading out everyday since holidays started and i ain't having enough rest, i've wasted all my beauty sleeps and i want them back. I don't know what wrong now and i don't know if things are going in the right path, as in like how i wanted them to be.

Save me from this agony, will ya?

If i were a boy

2011-10-03T00:06:00.002+08:00

Even if there was a thousand people by me, i still felt lonely. Maybe that's how a person feel after a break up and i guess i could withstand this and walk through it. I wish i could be that strong and independent girl back then and not this lil girl who would cry if you snatch her winnie the pooh away. I would be, i would stand up and walk this path.

I don't need a guy.

Its a new start

2011-10-01T22:50:00.002+08:00

Holidays are coming to an end and i'm almost out everyday. Everyday's a new adventure, i wanna get inked. But well, i have sensitive skin and idk if its okay to do so. Well, lets just hope when school reopens, its gonna be a great one.

Goodbye.

2011-09-26T19:53:00.002+08:00

I have to learn to be more independent, i no longer have you with me.
I have to take my bags myself, i have to carry my shopping bags myself, i have to go home alone, i have to force myself to sleep every night, i have to massage myself, i have to do practically everything. I'm sorry that i have to put you through all these torture, we used to be inseparable but now, i guess we gotta walk our own path. I don't know what i'm feeling but everywhere is a memory with you waiting to be forgotten.

P.S Thanks for everything that you gave me and im sorry that i have to leave you.

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2011-09-15T14:43:00.000+08:00

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Lies

2011-09-15T11:47:00.001+08:00

Don't tell me i was living in a lie.

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2011-09-08T16:46:00.000+08:00

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Things would be fine.

2011-09-06T21:21:00.002+08:00

I thought things would turn for the better, i thought that by giving chances, you'd change for the better. But i was wrong, so wrong. I don't want to be treated like this, i don't want to be taken for granted. I changed so much, but you know what? I'm never happy with how things is going right now. We shouldn't take this step, it was a wrong step. I know i have to get use to how life without you, but i could go through this.Who else am I gon' lean on when times get rough. Who's gonna talk to me on the phone till the sun comes up. Who's gonna take your place, there ain't nobody better. But its okay, things would be fine.

Indulge

2011-09-03T10:08:00.002+08:00

Clearly shown from the picture, i don't wanna care about the shot, i just cared about my starbucks. I caught Crazy, Stupid, Love. Its so damn nice! Go catch it! Talk about sore legs, we walked every shop in every storey. I got new pantys, it was so cute, i will take a picture for you guys to see. And guess how much was it? $5 each! Going out with Ahmoon later on for a clothes buffet. Can't wait. I gotta go get ready!

Life's about playing. Why wait?

SCHOOL'S OUT

2011-09-02T09:28:00.002+08:00

School's out baby. I got to make up to those outings i've been skipping. And well, gotta say i miss some peeps. You don't need to have many bestfriends, afew would do. That few is enough to make your life a happy one. I miss them :( Well, although exams is over, im still worrying over the results.

I was all by myself for the longest time till i finally found whats important.

Lock me up

2011-08-15T20:37:00.002+08:00

Problems after problems. Situation after each. Quarrels after one another. Disputes colliding together. All i want is for me to be safe from hurts.

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Take a break

2011-08-09T11:37:00.002+08:00

I feel like taking a stroll by the beach, just like those in America, they could sleep by the beach. Taking a break from home, school, friends and everything else. Main exams are coming and i couldn't get myself to study. Sigh.

Sometimes, I thought i'd drown in my thoughts.

Save me.

2011-08-02T22:02:00.002+08:00

Everyone has a different mindset, you can't expect me to live in yours. I wish i could pass my quiz or i'm bringing my head to the wall.

Stuck

2011-07-30T11:57:00.002+08:00

I don't like to be stuck in between of things i can't decide. I can't go this way, neither could i go that way. Quiz and Exams are killing me right now, the dates are approaching yet i can't keep up with them.

Someone save me.

Better

2011-07-26T08:50:00.002+08:00

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You know it when things are gradually changing for the better. You know it when you become a better person when you learn to let things go. Sometimes you don't have to hold onto the hatred, it only worn you out. Quiz and Main Exams are approaching, i gotta work hard but i can't seem to get my motivation. But im still gonna try to study cause i can't afford to repeat a sem. Ckt, dfund and emaths, please sail me through smoothly. I have so much things undone, gonna try to make time. Maths Quiz only get 14/20. So damn disappointing, careless mistakes, don't visit me all the time will you?

Killing me

2011-07-24T12:06:00.000+08:00

Oh bitch, i gonna get myself down to studying and finishing all those projects.

Spare me from the agony, please.

2011-07-23T10:43:00.003+08:00

I don't know what should i do now to make things better. I feel like taking a trip elsewhere that i never been to, i wish i could let things go, but i know im not ready to give things up. Everywhere contains memories i wanna hold on to, but you don't seem to understand. You know the feeling when you are struggling against yourself? Your thoughts, your agony. I thought life's gonna be great, but i was wrong. People asked me to cherish, but how could i when things came to this step? I want to hold on, but i know im losing grip. Nobody understands.

Confused.

2011-07-21T10:15:00.002+08:00

I can't help but feel so excited holding the flowers in my hand. I know that flowers and balloons are one thing that wouldn't last, some feelings wouldn't too. I wished i could be in my own world, with no rules, no regulation, no people, no everything. Poly isn't the same as previous school, you get all those pulling you down and everything. You wouldn't know which is truth and which isn't. I got so worn out by things around me, sometimes i don't even have the energy to bother whats going around me. I don't know how much i've changed, neither do i know how i've changed. Irony though.

Great day

2011-07-09T13:05:00.002+08:00

Winnie the pooh

2011-07-02T16:24:00.001+08:00

Went to Hk! Although i didn't really enjoy, i still got to take photos with my winnie the pooh. Oh boy oh boy, i love hunney!

Life's like this.

2011-06-05T11:18:00.002+08:00

From young, i haven't got a complete family. I keep telling myself its going to be okay, as long as i have friends. I kept myself in my own world, indulging myself in the life i hope it would be. I kept trying to be a girl everyone would like but i kept failing. At home, i was a unwanted child, no one cares, no one bothers. I was abused, no one knows. I was hurt, no one cares. Till the day i step into secondary school, things got worst. I mixed with the wrong bunch of people, got myself hurt in a relationship. My mother had a boyfriend, which i hated him. At first i thought, maybe i got myself a family again, i moved into the home and thought that i am a happy kid. But who knows, things didn't go the way i wanted to be. He did things that was unforgiven. No one believed in me, no one bothers to hear me out. I looked out at the window and thought, maybe i should jump down from here so that i don't have to face anything. But i told myself, life's worth living for, i want to make myself someone. I suffered from a trauma that no one wants to go through. Things were so bad that i thought i might break down. I keep telling myself, its gonna be okay, you have friends, look at the bright side. Yes, i continued mixing around till i found this bunch of people that i thought, hey this bunch of friends is really great. Things were great, they even celebrated my birthday for me, i thought that im the happiest girl in the world. After several relationship, i told myself that im not gonna love someone like my everything till i met this one. He was great, he treated me like his everything, but he was over obsessed that he wanted me locked to him. I thought that i got a great relationship, its okay if i had nothing else. I was with him almost 24/7. I wasn't mixing around with friends, i had thousands over friends in Facebook, but who can i count on? Practically no one. I thought i had a great team, but everything turns out so ugly. Now that i'm in Poly, i don't even know who to trust. Looks can be deceiving. I thought that i could start my life all over from there, but i don't know how to. I want to start a life brand new, but how could i. After each relationship, i tried to make myself prettier, till i transform from an ugly duckling to a normal, average looking girl. So much things happened, i don't know if i still have the will to carry on.

Goodnight not goodbyes.

2011-06-05T09:02:00.002+08:00

I'm having my term test soon, omg how i wish to pass this so damn badly. I've learnt all the dfund basics, and today im moving to maths! Wish me good luck! For the past three weeks i've been saying goodnight instead of goodbyes. Cool eh! (: Alright gonna hit the books soon! I swear people would be shocked to see my studying like crazy. 80% of my time is contributed to studying now!

Wake me up.

2011-05-31T20:59:00.002+08:00

Recently been through quarrels after quarrels. Furthermore, i failed two quiz. A nice way to start my poly life uh? Dfund and ckt paper is like a wake up call, waking me up from my lala land. i thought that i would pass, but i was wrong. People around can't be trusted. Gotta start studying now :X

What now?

2011-05-07T11:01:00.001+08:00

My new friends!

2011-04-30T10:29:00.003+08:00

Poly started, and its all about fun! Okay, i have new friends and the class is bonded like crazy! Although our class have only pathetic three girls, but it was still fun though. In poly, everyday was like a fashion show, you walked out there with thousands of eyes staring at you. Okay, but i liked it. No more fucked up rules like those in Secondary school man! Only that i got lost in the first two days! It was a bad feeling! But luckily there was friends with me, so i didn't get lost! HAHAHA! And i fall in love with the papaya pure juice there! OMG! It was like so nice! Okok, i'm a little too obsessed now! Woo, i am studying dfund, writing tutorial, ckt, maths, and some other. Learning A maths. But it was okay, i don't understand why people complained about it. I have a teacher running for election and a teacher who talked like a funny ah. Everyone was like making fun of him, and he is so proud of himself. Oh, i don't like him! And i have a teacher that reminds me of Mdm Zainah. Cool! Okay, i unblocked my new twitter. Okay! Thats all! I love poly man!

Run away.

2011-04-23T11:25:00.000+08:00

I feel like running away from this world and be in the world of mine.

There's something

2011-04-14T13:45:00.001+08:00

There's something about you that makes me can't love you lesser.

We both know.

2011-04-12T12:58:00.002+08:00

We quarrelled, we cried, we shut and we stop.

Cravings

2011-04-07T12:41:00.000+08:00

All i want is a ice cool beer.

Badly

2011-04-05T14:41:00.001+08:00

The good old days

2011-03-30T14:18:00.002+08:00

Miss those days.

A sudden urge of affection

2011-03-29T12:54:00.003+08:00

Ok, now i have a sudden urge of affection that i wish to unleash. This person whom i thought we wouldn't be together, impossible are now the one that has been standing by me since then. Many couldn't believe, not even me myself. We were friends, great friends that confide each other. Mostly the other way round as i don't like to talk about my problems. Well, after so much things, we became couple. Things were ok, just that it was weird though. Friends for a year and poof! We were couple now. I gotta say, this person treated me so good i thought i was in heaven. My life was like fucking perfect. This person was there, standing by me for so long that i became so damn dependable on him. Being dependable on someone, there must be much trust. You couldn't imagine a girl whom don't trust anybody, not even her family members to trust someone so much that she would entrust her life to him. You wouldn't imagine how much her life changed after his arrival. She were still hanging there, fooling around, nothing is important to her. Not even her life. But then, someone picked her up from where she fell and led her to a life she never imagined. She passed her o levels, surprisingly. She bonded with her family members, afew though. I'm gonna stop here, but love, we have been together for a year and two months now. I just want you to know that no matter what happens, i love you :)

No way.

2011-03-28T00:12:00.001+08:00

I do forgive but i don't forget. I do forget but i don't forgive. Please do not provoke me.

Life.

2011-02-05T23:07:00.003+08:00

Feelings are so complicated, one did get lost in it. Once you're in, its hard to get out. Love, such a simple four letter word, yet it holds so much meanings to it. When you're young, you look everywhere to get the love you thought it was true when you couldn't find them at home. You look all around, try and try again. Fall and stand again till you're so tired of everything. Sometimes you wish, everything could disappear, erase everything and start anew. Some things that ought to happen, have yet to happen and some that shouldn't happen, had already did. No one could change the history, only to change the future. Sometimes, you never thought you'd end up with someone that is so impossible. You thought it would not last forever, but it did. You thought it would be forever and it turn out to be a lie. How irony it is? Life, another four letter word, but it was something that got you turning round and round, making you feel like a fool. With all that i had walked through all these years, now i should've known. Whats good and whats bad.

A sign of relief.

2011-01-11T23:31:00.003+08:00

Finally got our results, i breathe a sign of relief. Four years of hard work paid off. Well, i didn't expect a pass, furthermore a good results. It ain't good, it ain't bad, just good enough for my standard. I'm glad to say i didn't disappoint my mother and those who stood by me, urging me to study everytime and helping me revise. And well, i'm kinda disappointed with my maths, but oh well, Mrs Ng says that there is still time for me to pursue my dreams, oh, how i love that woman. (: Well, i could relax now, but thats not the end. I hope i get into the course i want, and i only want to enter Temasek poly. Grant me my wish will ya? I went up to the booth and told them hey, could you give me one of everything? Because i just wanna go to Temasek poly. Laughs, i think i got them stunned for a moment yeah. I got my pillar of support and they ain't breaking down. I'm quitting this job soon. I guess it ain't worth my time. Whats wrong with you? I don't care of your rank, i seriously think that you have some ego problems. Well, forget it man. You sucks, continue letting people por. I don't give a fuck. (: Now that i had submitted my choice, i gotta let go of everything and relax. I'm working for another two weeks, and off i go. I might sign up for relief teacher if they could accept my hair colour cause i donwanna dye my hair again :x

Love, thanks for being by me. It ain't hard to put up with my tantrums especially when my patience runs out on me. We would walk hand in hand till the day i see leaves falling from the trees in our world.

Love stays strong.

2010-12-11T10:47:00.002+08:00

Every night, i con myself to sleep, trying to believe that my winnie the pooh is you. Every morning i wake up to find you, but it was my winnie the pooh that was sleeping beside me all night. Every afternoon i hope that time would pass by faster so that i could see you sitting there waiting for me to close my shop. Everyday i wished to see you more yet our job refuse to let us so. Its like a cycle that we go through everyday, yet we meet different people, we are working at different place, different time. But i believe, our love never dies. Well, i am counted lucky that you don't play around, and you are counted lucky that i chose to settle down. Now, this job has cause our lesser time together and that we have to run against time just to see each other. But well, for all i know, i love you.
Mummy came over to see me frequently but sometimes, you just can't stop thinking, why aren't we staying together? Well, i know shit happens, and we can't change it, but to live with it yeah. Well, gonna get ready to meet love.

How do i live without you?

2010-12-03T00:27:00.002+08:00

Finally got some free time to use my lappy. Work is tiring, yet fun. Well, i love my job, only that the hours are long. Many said i slim down, yet dearest is complaining. Now that we don't have much time together, we learn to cherish. Let me know how would i live without you by me? I guess i wouldn't survive. Mummy came to visit me sometimes, gave a kiss on her cheeks and i miss her. Well, i saw this old aunty today, she bought two clothes from me, yet she made my heart sank, aching that i hit it several times. Nowadays, people ain't caring much for elderly. I hate to say so, but i have no time for my grandma as well. The best thing i could do is to talk to her every morning and give her part of my salary. Thats all that i could do for her, she ain't young anymore. For sister, she is caring more than she used to. Well, i got to say, she is a great sister too. Now that i am working, i got to realise plenty. I got a great mummy, a caring sister, a cute grandma and a loving boyf. What else do i need? Furthermore, i have great friends that would come down to bugis for that few minutes just to talk to me yet i have no time for them. Working there with such fun people makes life easier. Well, love has been there all along. I know its tiring but well, i love you. We are running against time, time wouldn't stop, we chase.

Life wouldn't be easy as you grow.

Break away

2010-11-22T10:39:00.002+08:00

After slogging my life in studies, now i'm slogging in work. I could choose to be free, yet i chose to share the burden. Because i want us to be stable, i want us to break away. Working might be hard, but i came across different challenges. Its just my passion, selling clothes. I guess the only talent i have would be so. I get to know new friends, and people to dote on me so. There is so much things out there, i have yet to see, so much yet so little time. I always wanted to learn photography and to go to every country to take wonderful pictures. This has always been my dream. I can't say that i'm tired because this job is fun. I like it this way and never regretted it. I got my dream, i got my passion, now what i need is time and freedom. To get certain things, i got to sacrifice some. Well, for love, i never worried a bit because i know whatever things i'm up to, whatever things that would kept me, there is always someone waiting for me at the end of the day, carrying a huge bag full of my stuffs, bringing water and food to my mouth, bring warmth to me. And no matter what happens, you're still mine. You never failed to be, we would keep walking miles and miles, and we'd never turn back. We thrown away the past, now lets walk to the future. We're gonna be strong because nothing would be allow to break us apart. I'm clinging on to you, let me be sure of this so that i could be strong and hold on till then. I'm gonna let the whole world knows, i have you while they don't.

Love is the only thing that keeps me going, be it family love, friends or relationship. Friends like Jy would always be there, and for family, mummy and sister would always be, for relationship, yeah love would be there (:

Together we stand.

2010-11-17T08:44:00.004+08:00

Baby, i know that with my working days and working hours, we ain't gonna have much time together. I know that you'd fetch me to and fro work but i don't want you to tire yourself out. I promise you that despite working, i won't be led astray, neither would i forget you (: Well, thanks for the guy laroach wallet. I appreciate your thoughts and care, but do spend your money more on yourself too. We shall spend whatever time we have with each other alright. I know that i've been breaking down lately, and you have to hush me all the time but we will eventually get used to it. Like meeting for breakfast, going home at night. How i wish we could rent a room and stay together, at least i get to see your face all night (: Alright, i need to get ready and meet you for breakfast. And there it is, the start of another long long day :x

You're the strength that keeps me going.

Love sick.

2010-11-15T20:23:00.002+08:00

Gonna start work tomorrow and i guess i'm gonna miss baby. Working hours are so damn long, and guess what? One off day. Shit man. :x Well, gonna go through it too. :) Gonna worry what to wear now :p Bought a new clothe again, but i don't think that suits me, gonna sell it away again :D Laughs! Well, after working, i'm gonna have to skip many outings :x Oppppsy. Bought toga dress and a heels, well, i love Engpaochu man :D Met up with her yesterday and this pig says that she bought so much things just shopping with me :x HAHAHAHA! Well, gonna rest early and start work tomorrow. :D Gonna be strong.

Baby, i love you. I miss you :x

School's out

2010-11-13T21:12:00.002+08:00

School's out baby, its time to party! Went out with Jy, LLY, Yt and baby to bugis. Had plenty of fun that we forgot the time. I still have plenty of meeting to be done :D I wanna dye my hair, i wanna work, i wanna buy the whole bugis street's clothes, i wanna do many things. Awww :( Alright i shall stop crapping. :D I can't believe i'm being a teacher right now to teach baby maths! Muahahahaha! :D Alright alright, i wanna find job. Cotton on, when are you available?! :x Shall take a part time one first. :D

Nothing could tear us apart.

Chong's

2010-11-12T10:03:00.003+08:00

Went out with ahmoon. Job haunting we called. And we went to several places, yet it ain't to our expectations. I guess we fit Bugis street more, but i want cotton on. Shit me. Ohyeah! Kitmun did something really stupid yesterday. We were about to alight from the bus, and she sit up and look up, and when the bus driver hit the brakes, she sent her head banging the wall! LAUGHS! Shit, she is gonna kill me :) Well, gonna look around first. Well, today will be the last day of exams, i ain't gonna dye my hair today, i'm gonna be Kitmun's friend's guinea pig which he claims that he knows me when i don't know him. I think i have STM. Maybe i know him. :x HAAA! Well, i want my hair light copper blond man! I can wait for two weeks! I can! I will still be out for Job haunting, call me if you wanna tag along. (: Minyi's sick and we had to cancelled the birthday outing, well, i hope she is okay. She still have her present with me! Ohwell, we shall meet another day then. (: Now gonna get ready for school. :x Last paper, one hour and we are done! :D

I want to share the burden, love.

Study, work, love.

2010-11-09T22:09:00.002+08:00

Went to Bishan to catch a movie with love. Shit man, 2 hours of show and it sucks seriously. The first time i feel like sleeping throughout a movie. The weather is cold recently and i'm so bloated right now. :x Ate sushi today, gosh, so tempted :x Having the last exam on friday yet i ain't studying. Well, i will be reading up tomorrow. So happy that my ngor ngor is going back for o level. HAHAHA! I got power! ;p Celebrating ahdear's birthday tomorrow, i hope it won't rain tml. Gosh gosh. Please don't rain! Well, thursday i'd be out finding a job. (: I'm so fucking excited. :) Gonna go for a morning run tomorrow or i might be gaining weight instead of losing! Then i will read up some notes which i don't feel like doing so. :x But i still will :p Shit man, i wanna buy that heels :x Ohno ohno ohno! Its on sales some more. :X Well, i will sleep soon cause its late already! HAHA! I am still so full. Shit man. :X Ohwell bye!

Baby, work hard for your exams, i love you. (:

Neutral

2010-11-09T00:03:00.003+08:00

Had a paper today and i'm oh so happy :D The last paper, can just play through. But i'll study, on that day itself (: Gonna get a job soon, and im fucking happy that baby finally agreed to take o levels. I'm gonna be busy being a tutor, and i need some help yo. (: HAHA! Gonna skip overseas trip this year as there is many natural disaster out there. I guess i'll stay in Singapore, the safe little red dot. Woo, i will be going for an interview soon. Have to know the hours for working, i might take up two jobs. Well, wanna help me unload the burden? Get people to buy my clothes then :D Life wouldn't be easy, but i will be strong. Because i have several pillars that i could rely on. Despite falling, they would hold me especially for afew. (: Well, lets enjoy (:

I'm glad that you chose to give yourself a chance, don't waste your talents. We got to plan the future, because i believe in you.

I love.

2010-11-06T22:20:00.002+08:00

Went on with Jy and moon. Went to get my camera. I guess i have all the electronic devices i need, and i didn't get any help from anyone except for the laptop which aunty bought for me. :D Went to bugis and had a great time there. Furthermore, our dear Jy got addicted to neoprints after we had some fun as we were bored (: And she got so engrossed in making us up! And she herself can't see her purple lens (: Well, time proven everything, despite so many things, true friends stays with you. Remembering those days when Jy and i quarrelled almost every single days. Just because i don't like her attitude and she don't like mine :D Cute ain't we? To think that we became so close now (: 4 years and counting on. And well, ahmoon, for her, i lost a friend, but well, i don't give a damn. Forget what happen already though (: Although sometimes, there are disputes, i have to admit she was there for most that happen. I remembered me shouting to her: AHMOON! I vomit blood. Moon: Please la, you just now eat laksa la! HAHAHA! And, i'm gonna love Liow for getting me a camera (: Although it ain't that good, its better then nothing! Alright, one more week. (: And im free.

Mistakes that were made, could never be undone. Accept it.

I've grown up.

2010-11-03T23:33:00.002+08:00

Two more days to go! I'm cramping in as much fun as i could in this few days cause i'm going to study for my last few papers soon! I'm so delighted that i know how to do maths, some of the poa question, biology and history source base. Not to mention those sucky ones. I can't wait to see myself in the mirror with blond hair. Ohno, well i'm a good girl, i'm not going for a tattoo right now cause i don't want my mother to be scolded although i have my own point of views. I have my rights to choose which path i want to walk, no one can criticise me, cause i would take full responsibility of my life. But for now, as long as i can go batam, i'm contended. I want to go overseas, i haven't been going out of this small red dot since then. But well, i didn't regret my choice of leaving. I felt disgusted, and depressed at that moment that i almost tore my whole skin out. Well, i'm not elaborating. I hate to say, so much things happened. I wanna work, for the sake of my holidays, and mostly to help my grandma in bills. Yes, i know school should be the first priority, but who would see their kins suffer yet not help? So, i have my own point of views! I've grown up yo. (: I felt like a burden being lift up after today's paper. Maybe because History, poa and physics are over. (: Gone with the wind, i can't get them back. All the best! Oh ya, i love ngor ngor :)

Life ain't an easy path, its a game that we all must play.

Happy ninth, love.

2010-10-26T21:04:00.002+08:00

Happy Ninth, love. We've gone far, and now our life revolve around each other. True love's a gift, i accept it and went on a ride with you. Like a roller coaster ride, we went high and low, we shout, we enjoy, we cry, we laugh. Most importantly, we love. And well, this ride won't end, it'll just go on forever, life is like a present. We face different things everyday, we grew stronger.
Mother tongue, science practical, english paper and maths one down. Tomorrow there is maths two, i guess burning midnight oil isn't useful from what i experience myself. I had been relaxing after every paper and reading some notes and papers i did before. And i actually had more confidence in the paper. Well, since there is no point struggling, i just have to do my best and apply all that i know. I'll be studying hard. I will! Got a new phone and im so happy. Ohwell, time to stop here, gotta entertain my games. Have been neglecting them for a long time. Don't think is maple or audi, i think they are lame. (: No offense :D All the best everyone (:

We were once in different life, yet know, your life revolves around me :)

Angels cry

2010-10-23T09:44:00.003+08:00

Guess i screwed up for my o levels practical. So let it be, its over. Gotta get myself a new phone, i am in love with E5 and my old phone is dying on me. I have been using it for 3 years, and one year untouched. Heeeeeeee, there is so much to do, studying now, dying hair later, working. Wow, i'm so in love that i don't have to go to school. Just hope that the results is satisfying. I don't want to be a let down. I'm so in love with Hot Pink and Red recently. Red Heels, Hot pink handphone cover. WOW! Well, its 3 more days to my maths 2 and my 9th. HAHAHAHAHAHA! Well, going out later with granny yeah. I'm so happy today.

Let the cigarette burn the past away, till the ashes was blown away.

Not afraid

2010-10-16T10:43:00.004+08:00

I need a phone seriously, new one i meant. Hell, my phone black out on me last night. Shit you. Gosh, went out yesterday with Mag, Jh, Jy, Yt, Liow and myself, had fun. Watched the child's eye. I thought it would be more of screaming, yet its filled with laughter. LAUGH OUT LOUD. And i didn't expect that i screamed! Omfg, and liow keep laughing at me yeah. Ohno, no school now, but ohwell, i'm going back on Monday still. And, poof it became koko krunch. Well, just wanna get out of here, one more month dude, and o levels is over. And i am soooooo excited over working, i prefer working yo. And, i want a new phone, new phone new phone new phone. E5. E5. E5. E5! Although blackberry is nice, but E5 is almost the same, only the brand. Furthermore, its slimer, easier to carry around. So, E5! Finished an essay, gotta let Mdm Zainah mark it. (: And stupid Mr Chin, he laughed at my idea of coming back as relief teacher, hahahahahahaha, so what? His gonna recommend me, hahahahahahaha :) My favourite teacher. (: Opppps, have to motivate myself, and shit mrs ng, being absent on our graduation day. (: gotta run, have history to do, social studies to read, maths problems to work out, biology to revise, F&N questions to be sunk into my head, POA and physics to die on.

Lets walk this road together, through the storm, whatever weather, cold or warm.

Say goodbye.

2010-10-14T22:40:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is the last day of school, i don't understand why everyone is so fucking sad of it, well because i'm fucking excited. I studied for four sucking years in this fucking lousy school. Hell, thanks to my aunty and my sister, or i'd be enjoying life elsewhere, it'll be better then being here, obviously. And after the last paper, i'm fucking changing, and opps, i deleted some numbers already. And i'd change a new look and a new identity, cause i don't want the past to be bugging me. Bitches and Bastards, thanks for the four fucking years yeah? GOODBYE! Why people think that bidding farewell is do hard? Well, i'm fucking getting out of here.

Hey love, we are getting nearer to what we want to. (:

2010-10-10T09:06:00.002+08:00

Exams are nearing, coming closer and closer to me. But well, can't change a thing, gotta study harder. Recently, things happened, well i can't say i'm can always be a successful mediator. But well, i just want you guys to know, don't quarrel because of something that is so freaking small alright?! We're a happy team, a wonderful team. I don't wish you guys to quarrel over a guy. LAUGH LAUGH LAUGH! I won't say who is, don't want to make you guys famous, HAHAHAHAHAHA! Alright alright, study hard teammies. I love you. (: Hmm, things had been going smoothly for the past months, except for some juvenile tantrums. HEHE! I got to apologise for that. And oh ya friends, sorry to say so. But i ain't contacting anyone except for some after o. I'm gonna delete the past, and start over again yeah? Its been tough all this while. I just hope i could get good results, i don't expect for alot, well, actually i do! HEHEHE! But i just hope that this O results won't make me or my mum miserable. Hmm, what to do? This is life. I went through so much to know how harsh life is. But god gave me a gift, my teammies and my baby and ohya, a great mum who appreciate the same thing as me and a sister who although quarrels with me at times, but treat me quite well to. And yeah, my granny and my aunty. Ohoh, too much. I think i'm quite a happy child. No complains except for being STUPID! Ohyeah! I dreamt of Wayne Rooney visiting my school and giving me his jersey. Twice! HAHA! One more is Rooney, Coleen and Kai accompanied me to get my O level results. COOL COOL! HAHAHAHAHA! Ohwell, off to eat breakfast and hit the BOOKS! Ciao!

I love you for who you are and not who i want you to be, i don't blame you for neglecting some points, cause i understand why. I love you dearest. (:

The last song.

2010-10-01T20:58:00.003+08:00

Gosh, its been a tiring week. And i can't believe that its so close to O. And i guess, i have yet to prepare. Had been worn out lately, by all those homeworks and remedials despite sleeping so early at night. Well, i don't understand why people are so superficial. They could be someone here and someone else there. Wow. I didn't realise that they were so good at acting. I'm gonna prove Bryan Tan wrong man. I will pass! The school library banned me from borrowing books. To be nice, they wants us to be focusing more on textbooks. To be honest, they are afraid that we wouldn't return. Fucked up eh? English is also one important subject, do you guys know that? I think i shall protest to Mdm Zainah. Well, was thinking whether i should take up two jobs, or maybe should i just take up one. Well, i need all the income i could get. Life ain't easy dude, life ain't easy. Now, studies should be the first priority. After that comes many things. Have been wanting to read dear john and the last song, but ohwell, i watched it. (: Its touching, really. Well, move on dude. You are just acting like a 3 year old, and many had been kind to entertain you. Don't be such a whore. You know everyone detest you.

I love reading books because when i read, i am in another world of them, and not mine. Sometimes, its not the romance that touch me, its the death of someone you love.

Fun Fun Fun!

2010-09-16T23:02:00.002+08:00

Went to town together with ngor, Jy, Jh and maggie. Caught a movie which i rate it 1/5. Seriously no link man. But well, nevermind. Went walking around and shopped. Then Maggie have to go. Me, ngor and Jy headed to Hougang Plaza for pool. Guess what, i was suppose to take my ez link card for the lady, instead i pulled out my posb card. LAUGHS! And we had new names.
Jy- Cai hua
WLL- Cai xin
Aidah- Eng cai
LLY- Bao cai
Yt- cho lei cai.
Thanks to the inventor, Shirley Liow. Played pool and went home. Had tons of fun. (:

Wonglinlin: OMG! Rooney's picture pasted on the lift. Can i take a picture with him?!
Shirley Liow: baby, alot of people!
Jie ying: Omg, Lin i don't know you.

At Hougang Plaza.
WLL: Baby, how do i hit this ball when its so close to that frigging black ball?
SL: Hit hard hard.
WLL: Ok.
Action- Aimed, then hit real light, black ball went in. -.-

Mommy, you should read this.

2010-09-15T22:24:00.002+08:00

If you don't believe me, stop being a hypocrite and try to listen and try to solve. Fancy you throwing your own flesh to suffer the torments and hatred. I would give you a round of applause. I had enough mom. Thanks for everything, but i'm sick and tired. You should've known better. I went through more than a normal fucking 16 would. Not that i want to gain experience, but i have no better choice. I'm outta here no matter what. And for that fucked up uneven testicles guy. You think you should get those respect? Hell no. You started everything and you like to twist stories. Like you pushed your own mother who took care of you even till now when you are fucking 50+, jobless and being a burden to the society. You pushed her on the floor and had her head bumped into that glass door. Fuck, if granny didn't stop me, i would've called the police. Guess what, i called my aunty, and you know what he said? I did that cause i was so pissed off with her(that is me) reaching home late at night and mother(my granny) have to shout till he couldn't sleep. Clap clap. What an wonderful excuse. He asked ngor this today.
Uneven testicles: Hey, can i ask you why you always come to our house?
Ngor: Why?
Uneven testicles: No no, i just want to know. (glaring)
Ngor: silence.
Uneven testicles: Eh, why? I talking to you.
Ngor: Cannot meh?
Uneven testicles moved toward ngor and looked down at her saying what cannot? blah blah blah.
Hey hey, come on, whose in the wrong? And he was nagging to my granny.
I was just asking and i got attitudes, her(me) mother's boyfriend scolds me, now her(me) friend scolds me. You(my granny) are the owner of the house yet you said nothing. What else have i got to say. I don't need your(my granny) support. When you are dead, i will go out and rent a house. I will go be a beggar to feed myself. And he starts saying i don't even think that you(me) are my relative. Me, rolled eyes, come on la, like i know you like that. And complained to my mother, saying a different story. I never ever seen a guy, so fucking useless. When he said that his going to find my mother for a chat, me and ngor just laugh out loud.
Mommy, if you see this, you better get the truth before confronting me. I hate being misunderstood, even for the slightest matter. I'm changing my blog, i'm getting out of this life. You guys won't be able to find me soon. Don't try to settle this, don't tell me to respect this guy, i don't know him, neither do he earn my frigging respect. Thanks for taking care of me, sorry for hurting you. Goodbye.

2010-09-14T14:47:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday JY! 不要忘记我们的约定。去野餐。 Finally 16 already, i made a video, but i can't load it on facebook or my blog :x But well, still i hope you like the present.

情爱的，生日快乐！

Dreams.

2010-09-11T22:57:00.002+08:00

Well, holidays are coming to an end, and i don't think i digest much stuffs into my brains. But oh well, i really can't seems to set my mind onto something. Recently, other stuffs are bothering me. Oh no, don't tell me to look for a friend and talk all out, i don't feel like trusting them, except for some. Well, seriously, this four years in this fucked up school really thought me a lot. Like wasting my time in the basketball team, wasting my time fooling around, wasting my youth, and of course, to look out for friends, that ain't friends. I guess many just have to agree on this. Oh don't tell me friends forever, friends would be there when you need them and all those shit, for some, i do think its true, but for some, hey just go fuck yourself. You seriously disgust me. Competitions? Or just plain harming? Well, at least i did study this week. Worth it. I did something for Jy, but fuck it man, i can't upload it. TMD. :( Well, school is starting soon. Wake up, bathe, go to school, take the same bus, meet the same people, go to the same school, same routine, see the same people, study, and back home. Life is boring in school. EWWWWW! I hate school! Well, at least the thought of maybe around 2 months, i would be out there. Working, finding my life, i want it to be.

Baby, fulfill my dreams with me.

2010-09-08T21:59:00.002+08:00

I'm screwed up. Seriously, i'm no longer into studies, i'm no longer into basketball, and i'm no longer interested in any other stuffs. All i want is to go out there and get a job. Start earning money, start feeding myself. I had enough of being a child using mommy's money. And well, i had no longer find that kind of motivation for studies. I used to study because i have to get the grades up there to be able to play ball. But well, joining Macpherson Basketball Team was a big mistake. Not because of my teammies, because of some fucked up reasons. And some fuckers just spoiled my basketball days. Thanks to you, fuckers. Well, now i had no basketball, i had no goals, i had no motivation. All i want is my ass to be out of this house, and had nothing to linger here. Well, living standard in Singapore sure is high. I doubt i am going to keep surviving there, but hey, people work hard for a living. Thats what i am going to do. I meet new challenges that are more challenging than maths. I meet great friends that help in different aspect. I see new faces that i didn't know that exist. I am expose to different things i never did in school. Who needs a certificate here? I wished i don't have to keep struggling just for that fucked up certificate. Well, i'm beat. This holidays meant nothing. I actually could have a job opportunity. Well well, its gone. Nah, forget it. I still have to work hard to earn, save then plan. Seriously, stop adding stress to me. How long must i wait? How long would you then be able to get that house? I doubt it will be one or two months. Maybe it'd take one or two years. Life is unfair, fucking unfair.

Life is about breathing, if there is breathing, there is life, if you stopped breathing, there goes your life.

2010-09-03T20:27:00.002+08:00

Oh fuck, this world is so unfair and i had enough of it. People says that family will be there no matter what, OH BULLSHIT! These are all rubbish. Seriously, i don't understand why i would be born into this kind of family. I rather be an orphan or never be born. Biased, now what? Yeah, whatever it is, i'm wrong. She is always right, care for me? Bullshit. And Granny, oh no. FUCKED. Get out of the house to buy your things then, or ask your precious son or grand daughter, don't ask me, i ain't your maid. I got your things, and had to be scolded for being kind. WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS? And well, for my sister? Badmouthed, act. I think imma gonna introduce her to acting, she is super imba in it man. Mediacorp, get her in. And mommy, you said that you loved me, you dote on me the most. Bullshits and bullshits. I am never gonna believe all that you guys said. You said that i believe my friends, more relied on them. Now you know why? Seriously, i don't understand, mommy, granny, sister, i had only one short sentence for you. Fuck off my life. I had enough of all your bullshits. Do whatever you want, cause after this stupid exam, i'm leaving this place, never to come back again. Stop showing attitudes to me, i had enough. Don't tell me that you care, don't tell me that you loved, don't tell me that all that is for my own good. Hey hey, trying to kid a 3 year old? Nah, thats too lame. You don't have to give me money, i have my own fucking ways to survive. If not, i could just jump down the sea or some random building.

Fuck off my life, yes you don't owe me a living, but neither do i.

Love, can you hear me?

2010-08-27T22:27:00.002+08:00

Phew, exams. I have gone through maths and physics, history and social studies. Well, when a person grew older, they tend to think that quarreling and bad mouthing is lame. Friends, i don't know whether to call you a friend or a stranger. Who would harm your own friend by oh well, i'll just keep it to myself. I shall keep this short as someone would only turn in when i do.
Seven months of affection, we cried, we laughed, we shout, we smile. After all, we love. I know we've been through loads, we have learnt loads. Telling you in different language doesn't shows how much love is being put in, but still, Ti amo, love. You know, i know what lies in the past, and whats forgotten. We both don't know what lies ahead in the future, but we had our own future in mind. Love, seven months do seems long and trust me, i'm faithful.

Some people wants diamond ring, some wants to play but here i am, standing still holding on to my words. I love you.

2010-08-25T14:02:00.002+08:00

Seems like i have been neglecting this lappy of mine (: Oppsy! Prelims are here, and i ought to study. I did study, don't scold me :( I want to pass this time round, seriously. But social studies was hard, oh well, having history tomorrow. Gonna work hard hard hard! I should convince myself into saying, I LOVE STUDYING! Eww, sounds weird. Laughs! Short post as my lappy is running out of battery. (:

I love studying :x Well, i'd say first, as i know tomorrow i won't be online. Happy seven, love :D

2010-08-21T23:23:00.002+08:00

I have been rather exhausted lately, and prelims are round the corners. Well, i got my mother tongue results, although its not what i wanted, but well a B3 is better then nothing. I'm not going to retake as i have to focus on my other subjects, especially P.O.A. Well, i have some friends for support. And thanks moon, that i have one problem with a solution found. And well, i still need some more solutions for others. I'm tired of living in this high standard life. Yes i miss balling, but look at what it cause me? My leg, my health. Who says sports benefits you? I'm not in bandage. Don't ask me why, its just an old injury that cause it. Well, there is no point continuing basketball any further, as i have already quit GSCC team, and Macpherson have no more girls basketball team. And i have not thought of joinning other teams, neither do i feel like stepping into another basketball court. I could need a break right now.

Life isn't an easy path. I wonder why i was born.

2010-08-15T21:55:00.002+08:00

Well caught YOG soccer match with baby. Well, it was one great experience. Life is just like a match, you win some, you lose some. Well, i guess for a normal 16 year old child, i had gone through more than i should have. I have to start worrying about life if grandma passed away. I have to start thinking of the route i have to take. I even have to think of where i have to stay. Well, don't question me cause i don't stay with my mother. I can't expect much from her. Neither do i expect much from life. Everything relies on yourself. Yes, friends and family are there to help, that is for others to hear as something good. But well, when something happen, who do you see standing by you? No one but your shadow. I guess, if unfortunately, grandma is gone, i'd drop the chance of having to study poly and go out to work. Who says that without some certificate, you can't go anywhere? Some is a boss of a shop and stuffs. I would just have to work harder than a normal person, and save harder. Well, life isn't an easy path. I wonder why i was born in this world. But i should accept the fact that i'm here. And i should accept the fact that, i have gone so far, and i'm not giving up. I don't care however hard life would be cause i know, no matter what happened, there is still one person, standing behind me supporting me always. Baby i love you. I know you are tired, you are working hard, but let us work hard together alright? I don't want you to go through everything alone. Cause i love you too much to see you too tired. (:

Some things are meant to be, but oh well, some just isn't. Life's a bitch, be one to overcome it. (:

I had enough.

2010-08-12T15:02:00.003+08:00

I broke down yesterday cause i was fucking pissed and i had enough. So what if you dote on her more? You don't have to purposely despise me or rant at me when i did nothing at all. You said i go home late, you said i this and that, hey hello. It was you who started it. if you were me, would you come home everyday to hear me ranting at you, everyday, every hour, every minute and every second? I have to let her have the fan, i have to let her sit there, i have to let her eat first, i have to suffer the aches in air con just because she needs it, i have to help her take this and that to avoid her asking you to do so, i have to this and blah. Hey, fuck it. I am a human, i have my limits. If you're going to push it further, so sorry. I don't give a damn. Yes, i'd move out, sooner or later. No one could stop me, but that doesn't mean i would stop my duty as a grandchild, but i guess that don't matter. Just had the "burden to the society" and you precious darling take care of you would do. People say i have to listen to you and stuffs, hey hey hey, stop there. I'd listen, but what did i get? I accompany you to shopping and carried all your groceries home without complaining here pain there pain, i helped you washed the dish when you are tired, i clear the place for you when your precious darling made a mess out of everything and i stood up for you when your "burden to the society" pushed you on the floor. And what did i get? Whatever i do is wrong, wrong, totally wrong. Oh well, i stop helping, i stop trying. And guess what? Your precious darling posted this on my facebook.
Lin Luo:
if you want to move out it is your freedom...but isit good to let those who care for you to worry...although they never say out but little actions like waking up in the middle of the night to cover blanket for you,cook for you and always as...k if you have enough money to spent ? Don't just think about yourself or because of something happen that makes you frustrated to let you make such a decision...if after thinking bout all the good things the ppl who care for you have done, you still want to move out is your choice le...no one will stop you...
Wow, what a nice speech. Clap clap.
Wong Lin Lin:
‎> LinLuo> You don't have to bother cause everything you do is correct and well, all i did is plainly wrong in her eyes. I didn't say that leaving this house i won't come back, i will still serve my duty as her grandchild, but only leaving ...the house. You should try standing in my shoes before commenting. I have to let the fan to you, i have let you eat first, i have to let you sit there, i have to suffer the pain in the air con because you need the air con, i have to get scoldings not helping you to open the door. People have limits, if she is going to push her limits, sorry. I dont give a damn. If you'd say i haven't been thinking for others, look into it properly before commenting. I'm not trying to pick a fight, i'm trying to talk sense here.
But i guess mine is better. Look at my face now, do i give a fucking damn? Fuck no way!
I'm totally pissed. But oh well, i don't give a damn, waste of my time. Sorry baby, to have startled you. :p I'm fine, i'm totally fine :D

Had practical today and oh well, i screwed up. But oh well, Mr Chin and Gajen made my day. I alight from the bus like daily routine, i climbed up the stairs and look down at the end of the bridge and i finally saw Gajen waiting there. 2 months eh. :( And after the practical, we had to go to the Temasek Room, and fuck that Mrs Lim, she sucks a big time. And Mr Chin came over and we chatted. Well, do i have the "I will take Bio look?!" Mr Chin said that i have. LAUGHS!

When something is fated to be, no one could change it. I want to thanks some bitch for breaking great people up, because i earned myself one great guy.

2010-08-09T09:41:00.003+08:00

Waiting for our Miss Chua to upload the overdue photos. Went to Sentosa on Friday and had loads of fun. But well, i missed out some fun due to some girl's problem but well, i was quite entertained. I'm Rooney's daughter :D HURHURHUR! I had my hand hurting till now due to volleyball and my feet due to soccer. Oh well, i hate people bad mouthing my friend. Some no balls guy called Jy and co dog, and know what i did, i purposely kicked the ball so hard towards their friend's leg. Oppsy, i did it on purpose. You asked for it. Try hurting my friend and i'd kill you! And after bathing, i realise that i hadn't wore a normal tee for so damn long. Well, i was going around doing this.
LL: Aidah! Do i look weird?
Aidah: NO! You look ok :) i think you always wore dri-fit la!
LL: JY! Do i look weird?
JY: NO LA!
LL: Steady do i look weird?
Steady: No la! You don't la!
LL: YT! Do i look weird?
YT: No la!
LL: Baby do i look weird?
Baby: No uh, i think you too long never wear white tee shirt!
Laughs! I still think i looks weird wearing a normal tee :p And we headed to vivo for dinner and well we somehow gossiped! Heeeee, and we went over to the arcade and went to the open space. Aidah noticed what i did when i was bored, oppps! She caught me! And we headed home. There everyone was tired, well i got my pillow :D I skipped gym on saturday due to girl's problems again. Well and headed to singpost and did some homework. And i met with Ahdear, she do look abit pale still but i'm glad she is better now :) On Sunday, same as usual, studied (: And stupid Nan started with some ghost stories telling. Now i'd shiver hearing them! And we went off at 5. Back to my bird nest with baby. Laughs! And we watched Man U vs Chealsea :D WOO HOO! Man u won :D Javier Hernandez was great. But i still love my Rooney :p Well tata, going out for a run.

I could need a wish right now.

2010-08-01T10:57:00.002+08:00

I think i woke up too early :p But no choice, i got tons of stuffs to do today. Homeworks are piled up like a mountain and not saying those that was given long ago yet didn't touch it at all. I want to get out of this school as soon as possible. After that, i'd lead a life that i always wanted. Not mentioning leave this house too. I have so much things that i want to do, like working at the place i want to, having a tattoo, leaving outside, and this and that. Well, how i wish to drop school, too stressful i guess? Oh well, thats just an excuse. Oh well, guess what Mrs Ng caught me again for coloured hair. Fucked up man. Swear after o's, i'm gonna go back to collect results and stunned them with coloured hair and tattoo. And i ain't gonna wear that fucked up uniform. Sucks to the core man.

Do not spoil what you have now by desiring what you have not. Remember that what you have now was once among the things you only hoped for.

Can you just notice?

2010-07-30T22:40:00.005+08:00

I got to learn something shocking today. Well Ahdear, please take good care of yourself, i didn't expect that coming. Well, please be careful aites, i will visit you if i could. Sms me when you are back. :( Sorry that i neglected that, and i didn't notice that. Well, please take care alright. Imy. :(
Went to bugis with CKM and CJY on Wednesday, to find some clothes for both of them. Well, i swear Cjy's dress is super nice (: Saw the picture of the toilet roll? While, we somehow got it with the help of Iqmar. Know why we need it? Cause our school's girls toilets have no toilet paper at all. So well, we are quite desperate for toilet paper oh. I helped with the making up of them. Well, it seems like i'm the mother and they are going to married today. Laughs! Well, went bugis with baby today. And stupid, the balls of the tou lan ji is being renewed. And hell, i can't expect that i actually only score 138 -.- 638 to 138. WOW! We actually didn't take pictures. We shall take pictures some other time (: Opps, i guess we have no new place to take pictures already :x

F&N: Iron is needed for cellular respiration which is the breakdown of carbohydrates to release energy in cells.
Iron could be found in egg yolk and red meat.

I used to wonder why people would cry for people and why love songs are created with sorrow. And why love stories would make people smile and cry. Love, is that so powerful? I thought it was plain lame. Well, for now, i guess maybe my perspective have changed. I don't wish to see you leaving my house, biding goodbye which took us 10 minutes. ):

Take me away with you.

2010-07-27T21:15:00.002+08:00

Schooled again and phew, one day closer. I wished that o levels would come and go quickly like the wind. I longed for those carefree life. Well, i see no friends would be so bitch enough to snatch your friend's date eh? Well, i despise those person. Seriously, there is no point hating, because it only cause you fatigue. Nothing else. I wouldn't badmouth and i do not want. I just want to study, take my o's and get my butt out of here. School is the last place i ever want to be in. And yeah, baby take me away. I'm living in a house full of insane people. I guess they must have rocks in their brains. One bossy, one attitude, one only knows how to threaten. Who would want to live in a house like that? Gosh gosh gosh!

Biology: Osmosis is the passage of water from a region of high water concentration through a semi-permeable membrane to a region of low water concentration.

Baby, we'd work hard, harder than anyone would to make that dream come true (:

Happy sixth, love.

2010-07-26T20:20:00.002+08:00

Happy sixth, love.
Its been long, rather for me. Well, life haven't been easy at all. I went through much, yes the law don't approve, people would despise, people would comment, we'd get those curious look. But, do you think i freaking care? I don't bother what people think, cause its my life, so what you comment, you badmouthed? It doesn't bother me. We have been through loads, be it bickering to laughter, tears to joy, misunderstand to clearing up, fighting to playing around. Hey love, i just want to let you know, who bothers about them? Right? As long as we know what we feel. People may not remember those little things that sparks things up, people may not remember those small little things that starts a story, they forgot what would cause their heartaches. Because we look into the future and we create new stories and live in it.

I'm gonna do this in every post, i'd write one definition of something to let me remember notes better :D
Biology : Diffusion is the movement of molecules from a region of higher potential to a region of lower potential down a concentration gradient.

Edited.

2010-07-24T21:50:00.003+08:00

I wonder why we had to be haunt by o levels and be given huge amount of homeworks that we can't possibly finish. Teacher says that we should have enough sleep to boost out energy, but there is test on the following day and we were given a huge pile of homework that even doing till midnight, there are tons undone. Hell, i'm haunted by poa. I hope it go away. :( I guess i have to work and start clearing my wardrobe. Well, sell them away then. Rather then throwing those away. Worst is most of them are newly bought, left untouched. I'd strive hard to finish them, but how much could i do? Adding on to my troubles, the whole body aching part is the worst. I hope that i'd kill myself to kill the pain. Having to flip and turn in bed for minutes to hours before being able to get myself to bed. Whats wrong? Hell with it man. I'm gonna die of aching some day. I'm like only 16 for god sake. Who says that sports would benefits you? I say sports harm me. Went for relaxation with baby and Chua. Thats hella fun man. Went to play pool and oh yeah yeah! KTV. Omg, my favourite, although i think my voice that came out from the mike sounds weird :x HEHE! Well, it was one day that i really enjoyed. Thanks baby and ah chua. Love ya! :D

Some people can't be trusted. Trust? Trust yourself, you yourself would be the only one that would be truthful to yourself.

2010-07-22T22:20:00.002+08:00

I wonder how a small, dark, bare and empty room could hold so much memories. Well, but i rather not have them. I have been taking afternoon naps lately, laughs! Gosh, i'm going to be changing alot after o's. (: I want a tattoo. :x Its body arts isn't it?
I don't bother celebrating my birthday, cause i think that when i'm 18, then its time for celebration (: I could be at legal age to do any thing. HEHEHE! I've been studying hard alright! Well, but still oh gosh! :x I want a tattoo. Pheonix. Omg. :) AWW MAN! I'm so obsessed :)

In the end, it's not going to matter how many breaths you took, but how many moments took your breath away.

2010-07-13T22:35:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Wonglinlin. 16, people says its sweet, but i say its work 16. Two more years to legal age. Oh yeah. Nothing special today aites, only a little upset the day before. Well, nothing much. Thanks for all the wishes. Thanks ah jie for the cake, and thanks Liow's family, for making the day (: I'm so in love with my new nickname, Mrs Rooney :) Cool eh? :p Well, idk whats Jy and co. up to. They booked me tomorrow. Oh well. There is school still! Gosh, i balled too much, i think i strain my muscles. :x And yeah yeah, i got a hug from Azhar, from last year man! Thanks dude! And Thanks Ewan, (: Aidah's message was touching, well, i'd listen! (:

I don't expect alot, in fact i expected nothing, i just hope you'd hug me and wish me happy birthday. But instead... Oh well, it's over so lets not brood over it. First birthday gift = swollen eyes. You know i don't expect anything.

2010-07-10T23:23:00.001+08:00

Today's a "without you" day. Today was a hectic day man. Gym in the morning, doctor in the afternoon, met mummy at night, was supposed to meet Bee and Moon, but a change of plan well. :x My whole body is hurting. Rot man rot.

2010-07-09T20:56:00.002+08:00

Wow, fuck teacher seriously. I killed so much brain cells to finish that piece of homework and there she is assuming that i copied due to the overlooking of contra entries. What the fuck, if you don't know, don't assume. I hate being misunderstood. Seriously pissed, so who says that our teachers spurs us? Hey talk cock! I don't even bother to argue back, because i think it is just a waste of my time and saliva. They only poured buckets of cold water on us. Seriously sucks. Went Bugis with Baby, just to play arcade. Laughs! A great way to distress. I broke my own record, 602 at shooting balls. Oh well (:

2010-07-08T22:40:00.002+08:00

I've finished reading Yakuza Moon, i swear its super interesting. While reading the story, the little parts mentioned about families, wow, thats heart aching. Well, flashbacks came back like when i'm young,how mommy used to hold my little hand and walk around. Hey Hey, get a hold of yourself man. Well well, lately, my body's failing me, headache everyday, my injuries coming back to haunt me everyday, every ounce of muscles hurts like hell and i keep getting new injuries. Well, this body sucks, let it rot man, let it rot. It's finally coming to the end of weekdays, i finally get to rest. I'm really beat, totally worn out. I need a break, take a nap! I'm moving on to the next storybook, real live story. (:

I'm not saying there wasn't anything wrong, I just didn't think you'd ever get tired of me. I'm not saying we ever had the right to hold on, I just didn't wanna let it get away from me.

2010-07-07T22:55:00.001+08:00

If i could, i definitely would drop physics man, picking up on poa though. I guess things went for a little turn. And i don't know why either. Whats on your mind? Oh well. Thats all, Germany and Spain tomorrrow morning. I'm gonna read score instead, i need my sleeps.

2010-07-05T20:03:00.002+08:00

I wasted my whole day lazing at home, doing practically nothing. While did some homework and read a a book. So, counted as something done. Better than nothing (: Well, we literally laze around at home. Gosh, tomorrow there is school. The thought of school irks me. Who would enjoy it man? Aww man, baby, baby!

"The things that people in love do to each other they remember, and if they stay together it's not because they forget, it's because they forgive."

2010-07-04T22:01:00.002+08:00

Aww man, people says they suffer from world cup fever, but i suspect i suffer from Wayne Rooney fever. Gosh, although England's out, its ok (: At least i don't have to see Steven Gerrard (: Thats the best thing man! I prefer watching Man U's matches. Gosh, how i hope i could subscribe mio, gosh gosh! ): Tomorrow's a holiday, i shall rest, thanks to girl's problem, i have to stay at home. Laughs! I've got England's poster, i shall cut Steven Gerrard out! (: And i shall go buy Man U's poster (: LAUGHS! I think i rather buy Rooney's poster would do! (: Easier man! I'm having my oral in two days time :x WOW WOW WOW!

I love you baby (: Hey don't waste money on my birthday alright. I know you got "GREAT" plans, but well, you know. (: How about wearing Rooney's tee and wrap yourself in a box? (: Or a winnie the pooh suit? (: Great ideas i have right? :p

2010-07-02T22:38:00.002+08:00

All mankind deserve to love and be love, so get out there and love. You only live once, so whats wrong with you? Go all out, but never to hurt someone but to love someone. Life has always been unfair, time is never enough and people are always changing but the world ain't stopping for you. Cherish is a short word, yet holds a strong meaning. Stupid and cold blooded person would never know, cause they always think that they are, OH so perfect when they are like "ewww, so imperfect!" No one is perfect man, if you think you're the no one, think again, cause there is always something that cause your imperfection. Even the world's best model have her own imperfection.

2010-06-30T16:53:00.002+08:00

Now its like school, homework, exams. Aww, i'm exhausted, trying to hard to keep myself awake in school, but well instead of coffee, pictures perks me up. Heee! Guess who face was it? Wayne Rooney of course (: Ronaldo too. Well Portugal lost to Spain. Well i'm waiting for Argentina to trash Germany. Haaa, mummy called and say that she didn't win in the lucky draw, i want that yellow shirt ): But don't know which lucky person got away with it. Gosh ): O level chinese oral exams are approaching, oh no! Well, just go along with the flow eh (: When its your friends birthday, you get all so excited wanting to celebrate with them, and when its yours, you hope it would just pass quickly. As one grows, birthday are just another day. Oh well, schooling on that day, so (: Yun Teng is super funny, she seems like she is more excited than i am, counting down for my birthday! Laughs! (: She is cute, isn't she? (:

Baby! HXNO! HANO! :)

2010-06-28T19:54:00.002+08:00

When problems came knocking at your door, would you open the door to face it or would you shun it?
When people confide you with their problems, you can give advice like a river, non stop. And when problems came knocking at your own door, you are like a mute, speechless. Well make sense? I guess too much is happening, i need to CHILL. Well, fuck everything alright. I need a break. I'm tired of everything. Read this _|_

2010-06-27T22:29:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday Azhar, Damien and Chongkitmun (:
There is school school school. And due to school, i can't watch soccer. What the fuck is this?! England, please win. And right now the score is like 2-0. Eh, what is this shit?! Wayne Rooney, please do your stuff. I know you can! Aww :x Argentina against Mexico at 2.30am. Well, i bet on Argentina. A confirm win. With Messi, aww, (:

2010-06-26T22:20:00.003+08:00

In one day's time, i'm going to be a nerdy child, carrying a huge bag carrying tons of books, keeping fringe up, going to school every morning. OMG! I want to protest! Do they teach us how to be nerds or what?! I can't believe that June holidays are over. Well, what have i been doing? Omg, at least i did do my homeworks, and i'm not last in class. Still i have to buck up. I finish a book. Well a pity i can't finish two. But well, that book about Geiko, seriously have loads of meaning. Next book, heee! I want to read about Geisha. (: Phew, thanks to Meera, i'm done with Poa. Thanks to baby, i'm done with English. Fuck me upside down, i haven't finish my maths. Well, praise me, cause i finished reading a meaningful book. Say i'm a good girl cause i did some reading and taking down of notes (: Mummy says that after o's, she is gonna bring me overseas. I can't wait man! Mummy even said that baby could tag along. Where in the world could you find a better mom? Overseas! Yipee, i can go shopping with Mummy and sister (: Isn't it great?! I can't wait! I can't wait. But needless to say, i'm still carrying my plan to take up two jobs after o's. I need to save up money. Some knows why, some are kept in the dark, but i'm doing everything to keep myself going further. (:

Happy fifth, love. (:

2010-06-24T23:58:00.001+08:00

Went out with mummy, sister, grandma, and shirley liow (: Watched Ip man, oh man! I almost fall off my seats due to the awesome story and everything. Omg! I don't mind watching it again and again and again and again and again till i grow bored of it (;

Love, i love you (:

2010-06-24T20:33:00.003+08:00

A day at Marina barrage. Unlucky day, cause it rain-ed on our way there! Sorry friends! But well we still manage to have loads of fun (: Its great that there are people that actually thank you for the effort placed in. (: Letting you know all those hassle was worth it (: Went for movie, ip man! I swear its fucking nice. Encourage you to watch man! (:

2010-06-23T11:00:00.004+08:00

Went to Marina barrage on Monday with Gweeminyi and Shirley Liow. (: Great day, only that i got sunburn! :x The oreo cake is a great success! Still awaiting for Gweeminyi to upload all the photos! Going Marina barrage again today (: Isn't it GREAT?! :p Its been long since i saw them, my crazy classmates (: Will be back with more pictures! England, tonight 10pm. Hey Rooney, get into second round alright! LOVES!