Faraway

I keep having the thinking that you haven't left, i keep thinking that in a few minutes i could see you right beside me. This four days, i had you with me, not every minute but almost every hour. I was so used to have you sleeping right beside me that now, i don't wanna go to bed cause i don't wanna accept the fact that you ain't beside me now. I had you with me through all meals, throughout the day that i don't have to dress up and go out with you, we could just laze at home. I like the feeling you gave me that i could be just myself around you, no restrictions and stuffs. I like it when you whine to me once in a blue moon and how you'd laugh at my silliness, how you'd worry when my neck got swollen, how you scoop food for me, cutting my noodles for me, squeezing my cheeks, holding me, hugging me, grabbing me for a tight kiss, how you would look at me in the eyes, touch my hair and hug me to bed. Yes, i'm sensitive, i told you i need security and assurance, thats what you're giving to me, you told me you want to buy a house, a car and you wanna live with me. How sweet of you?

I think i fell for you, and this time, i ain't moving.